We were presenting our topics in Poli Sci 101 today, and as this girl was giving her presentation, she kept saying "Am I boring you guys?" and "I really didn't research this!" and "Oh, I'm so unprepared! Ha-ha!" and she felt these were the right things to say, because most of the people in the class were nervously laughing along with her.

But I didn't agree with her repeated self-deprecation. Or I didn't just agree; I agreed with her and I wanted to throw things at her. Shattering things. Watching someone purposely sap away their own self-confidence is one of the worst things in existence, right up there with watching me brush my teeth, and lemme tell ya it's like a toothpaste grenade went off above the sink. Ugh.

Next girl I meet, I'll shake her hand and say, "Hi, I'm witty, ambitious, and actually quite physically attractive to boot." And she'll think I'm an arrogant ass for quite a while, but at some point she may begin to wonder, what the hell does he have going on for him that's so great? What could possibly drive a person to be able to say something like that? And maybe she'll reconsider.

But the joke's on her! It's all a farce. There's no inner beauty here further than a disdain for the inner ugly.

-p5.

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